I realized what a messy life I had! Hang out with everybody, have fun everywhere and drank a lot. All I ever thought before was the road to enjoy life is to have all the worldly pleasures. Until I found out that there’s so much more than all those shit when God came to the rescue. He sent me someone who changed my entire being.
At first I thought that he’s like one of those assholes that I used to play with..but it seems that he’s the answer to all my life’s questions. He even taught me one thing that I avoided the most.. Hell yeah!..that crazy lil thang which makes the world go ‘round..
I honestly don’t wanna learn ‘bout it and don’t have plans of knowing what’s it like to be in love. I was so afraid that God sent him just for me to know and when I do..then it’s time for him to go. But I can’t help it. Thought I was the best player ever yet he proved me wrong. I didn’t expect that he’s better than me..so he’d made it!
I admit that nothing could compare with the time I first fall in love with that someone. It was more real than anything else I had experienced. Infinitely more satisfying than anything else I could desire..not that my life had become perfect..but everything was made beautiful because of his presence. I really don’t know what my life would be without him.
This is the very first time in my whole life to experienced things I thought that never exist. First time I knew Armando (being jealous), Carmina (pissed-off) and Karma…they suck but somehow feel so great for it made me human after all. I can now feel the pain..the butterflies in my stomach.. everything!
So whether I’m having good times or bad times with him..there’s one reality that no one can take away.. My love will always be there no matter what level of suffering I have to go through. I wouldn’t change a bit of it for it’s the best feeling I ever had.